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I'M A HOUSE OF CARDS IN A HURRICANE
A RECKLESS RIDE IN A POURING RAIN "

clairity

http://elitedaily.com/life/greatest-moments-clarity-life-realizing-things-didnt-work-youre-better/773523/


Really says it all.

"

That moment you realize if you hadn’t failed miserably, you would have never learned your lesson.

People fail all the time – often failing multiple times at the very same things. Failing is one of the greatest things in the world, as it reminds us how imperfect we are. It reminds us how much we need to learn in order to become the people we wish to be.
Some of your largest failures in life will become your greatest assets. Some day you will realize that if you had never failed, then you would have never succeeded. "

Thank God for my optimism sometimes too and my level of not giving up.

anyways that time I was really bored, so I decided to pla tarot for fun.
Its not that I believe it whole heartedly because it's just cards and He is the Almighty one.
But scary how coincidence it seem to be. I'll take it a lucky pick or something but this part suprises me.



Lol.

that's it. goodnight.

Empty.

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[ I wish I could agree to this but no, really. Have yet to happen to me]


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I wish I could but I don't know I became cold nd numb already.

I wish I could salvage it all and reshuffle my past life events to a better position. Really.
No I am not blaming anybody or fate but I am swallowing it all and taking full responsibility for my actions. Price for procrastination and a harsh realization that life isn't a smooth sailing boat.
God, amazing how I get through it with my tears and inner strength from within. I need to be optimistic and stay strong for my loved ones and at least for myself.
Thank God for your strength and guidance.

Still counting my blessing despite it all..

16feb

I don't know where to start but hey there hello.

- I meant belated ya lol

My marketing paper is over but god damn, I literally hope that what I wrote make sense because some were plain bullshit. But hey at least it is over.

Went to this Italian restaurant saizeriya at Orchard gateway with my usual people.
So sweet and thoughtful of them to asked whether it is halal or not but that does not matter because I don't consume it directly.
As usual, me and my creamy based pasta adventure.

I guess when the pasta is not up to my expectations then it end up not being eaten. Which is why I need genia in my life. lol.
Okay. I really don't know when will I get sick of creamy pasta.

Anyways, actually the purpose of this post is to share how thankful I felt.

( lol at my comment to the Kardashian sis)

Managed to grab FSOG. yay!
Im really ambitious and stubborn so when I set my mind on something ill ensure ill get it done.
Have always been obsessed with the storyline and to add on to my escapist nature, it does appeals to needs and desire not about the luxury but about how insanely incredible that fantasy is.

I really think Jamie is such a bae,

I found this link and I think it makes sense. my gosh.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/jarettwieselman/thoughts-i-had-while-watching-fifty-shades-of-grey?bffb&utm_term=4ldqpgz#.jy0YJ5kL5

Anyways, though it is just fictional but I do believe certain parts make sense like " I don't do the girlfriend thing " I guess society has changed and given the exposure one has nowadays can only prolonged the negative effect of it.
I do believe that such term known as friends with benefit still exist and that people push aside religious beliefs as they felt that desire and lust are overpowering.
I have seen it happen.
Anyways, it was a great movie.
So please man drop that crap on how the restrictions shit. Its over and its a o big deal anyways.

That's all. all that matter now to me is my exams and till then, goodbye.

Before the end.

My gosh, I don't know how should I feel but hmm,

I think 2014 have make me a wiser person. Of course,
 I met new people in life. Some manipulative cunts, My friends in poly, my instructors, those choreographers, God mamma, Aunty Nora.
 Nikita became my bestfriends and then Poly and swimming with dolphins on my birthday.
 Too many good things happened.

To make it short I think I have learnt that life always took it twist and the most unpredictable moment.

Who would have thought that my past came back to interwined with my present? that I would be doing dance classes such as bolly? to be doing kickbox every week?  and to received a kissed on the lips on Christmas? ( highlight of the month because it's a chain effect) well but some things are just meant to be personal.
The list goes on.

But well, whatever it is. I believe it happened for a reason and that I should always cherish each moments and not take it for granted.
I would like to sincerely apologised to anybody if ever, I had accidentally caused some shit or said any things or do anything that would hurt you.

Lastly, I hope 2015 will be an even better year for my family and I and to you as well.

Sending all my love and the firework will go any time soon. My heart is beating so fast.

31ST.

Oh my gosh, this is my 3rd year celebrating the 31st December with my closest junior. So happened that our birthday is just one day apart. She is two years younger and it always feel like it is the opposite ones instead.

Head down to bugis because this pantat wants to try something.

My immense love for croissant had to be pushed aside and I decided to go for pasta. I have always love cream based ones.
Bloody crap, waited half an hour for pasta. they probably forgot to take check order or something.
I don't want to ruin anything since ita 31st and because my module taught me 6seconds rule and consequence thought process, I cant believe what she said was in my mind when such shit happened.
But honestly, its not worth the price. I like the taste, the bacon was delicious.
I always try pasta whenever I go to cafes and stuff, but personally I think pastamania chessy crumble is the best.
So I shall just let the picture says for itself.

I head down to another café instead to grab some dessert.
paddlepop cake.

 because I want to end my 2014 with a cake ,

something sinful since ill be working and also be attending kickbox and pump tomorrow.
Thank you Atiqah for being such a bae and annoying ass at the same time. I will always love you. hahahaha and please fyi, atiqah Hassan is shy whenever she sees her online instagram friend in person. I was contemplating about what I wanted to eat, and there she was whining about the possibility of bad impressions that might be thrown to her. crazy ass. I still love you.

I am really sad to find out that I lost my top sop orange lipstick so for this time being I shall just make do with my anna sui red lipstick and chanel pink ones, I guess this is heartbreaking but Im so glad I found my hoola brownish lipgloss by benefit and yay! muisew gave me a ponk gloss.
And it is really hard to take a proper ootd yah, it has been awhile.

 must step abit ar. hahahahhaa.

I want a more defined shoulder, and its scaring me to upload more wights during pump, given my age now.

part of the reason to why I wear cap is because my hair is messy like crap, and then my black roots are growing as well. haiss...

I shall just end this post for now. its 2350. and I shall probably type out a main post before 2015 becomes official.

Wimbly.

Felt so blessed to have met this lovely girl.
Did some café hop and then we shopped as well.
Thanks Mia for making that day a great one for me! I certainly have make you learnt how significantly important it is to have a baby wipes and you made me want to try do peppermint stuffs.

So glad. Strike off this café. Their waffles was so good! My Ribena looks like somebody blood.
and I will certainly come back again to try their tarts.

This makcik love her peppermint too much.
and sorry ar, I don't have Nat's or Randy's skills when it comes to taking pict of food. so the pict might not be of a great quality and I don't give a damn too.

im sad I have misplaced my orange lipstick at home. The chanel one is pink and the anna sui one is red. I need more lipsticks.

Mia,  you can be  the next Karlie K already.